Look what you made me do…..

I had faith he would come to his senses and admit he was wrong, but it didn’t happen. Today I sat in a homeless shelter for women, talking to a social worker who has heard far too many stories of women trying to heal the men who hit them, and felt like an idiot. Everyone is telling me I’m stupid to love him, all of them comment he isn’t attractive, and what did I see in him? Maybe what I saw in him wasn’t real after all.

I guess he made his bed, now he has to sleep in it. I didn’t ask for any of this, and I sure didn’t ask him to go to the court and lie to get me out of the flat, my home. He didn’t want to use the legal or morally sound routes. Lying to me doesn’t matter so I guess lying to the court doesn’t matter either. But actions have consequences. The system is meant to protect women, not to be abused by morally bankrupt men trying to get their way.

I didn’t ask for any of this. I was happy with the life I had, the life I had with him. Two weeks ago tonight, we I bought tickets for a cycling event together. The next morning, with his insistence, we filmed a blow job video for OnlyFans in our kitchen. Life wasn’t the picture he painted.

Now here I am, stuck in an existence I didn’t choose and don’t want.

The truth will come out. He could have ended the nonsense, now I will.

4 Replies to “Look what you made me do…..”

  1. system is skewered. Hang on in there please. You are doing the right thing by shining a light on your abuser. Is there any way of assisting you with emergency funds ?

  2. I am so sorry for the situation you are in. You sounded so happy in your new relationship. I wish you all the best in rectifying your situation .

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