He lied about loving me so did he lie about liking fucking me? When he said he loved my ass, did he mean it? He started to enjoy blowjobs, was it fake? Did he like my tiny tits or were they too small after the chubby ex, the one he says he cheated on me with so maybe he didn’t like them?
Maybe he didn’t like skinny girls? So many questions and no answers anywhere to be found. It shouldn’t have been me complaining to have sex more either, he was more horny to begin with. He said something about Chinese hookers in the morning, so he jerked off vs having morning sex? I don’t know what was real, he didn’t love me, so what in those months was real was a mystery.
He did a break-up in a way that meant no horny calls to see me and fuck me, so he obviously didn’t want to ever see/talk/have sex again. Again, this points to the story of the ex being true, and maybe sex doesn’t matter to him, since she hates it.
Maybe money makes him more horny than my ass did. Hard to know what is real, he seems to enjoy fucking me in the videos, but again, he lied about so much.
That makes it all so much harder, not knowing what was real. Not being able to ask about anything. Normally not how people end a relationship, and the keeping my stuff part too. Guess I need to find someone who likes kissing me, and having sex. Someone who can be honest. Better than what I had should be easy I’m told. Maybe a real cyclist this time, saw some hot ones yesterday.